It’s not uncommon for me to be very late / last minute with my updates. Partially because I am easily distracted but mostly because deadlines make things feel like work, and no one wants that. This time though, it’s not really like that. I really felt that last year was sent to test me and I rose to the challenge, I prioritised things that needed prioritising (even when they felt selfish or silly) and I came out of 2025 feeling like I had done myself proud. What do you do when you do all those things and the universe still comes and hits you in the face with a sack of bricks?

Lots of lovely things have happened so far this year and so many moments of joy have been had, even in some really rubbish situations and for that, I am grateful. It is still hard, however, to write about any of it with this thing looming. This thing isn’t even my thing, it’s some of my favourite peoples thing. Which means I can’t give all the specifics or the details because it isn’t my story to tell. All I can write it about my own shit, and how I feel about it, because I don’t want to speak for anyone else.

Some of the goodness that happened in January was actually really good. I found out that I got the job! Huzzah! What job, I hear you ask. Well, it’s a new one and it’s a promotion and it’s the one I’ve been waiting for. I am grateful for the job I had last year, it was the break I needed to get through the things I needed to in life and it gave me a fresh perspective on my priorities. Without that I would probably have already burnt myself out in the new job, but I learnt the lessons I needed to and I am in the best shape possible to tackle this new challenge.

We had the last of the big work done on the flat, built in wardrobes in the bedroom, a snazzy purple colour which makes everything feel all warm and cozy. They’re revolutionary as far as their storage abilities and they make it feel very fancy and adult and I love them. The house is very close to being done now, just our hallway project to finish which is a little lost at sea but we’ll rescue it eventually….

It’s hard to talk about the rest of January (and sorry to anyone who actually reads this but February will likely be the same). I spent a lot of time with some very important people and I feel so incredibly blessed and grateful to be able to be that person and to be there. I’ll do my best to keep being that person, and anyone who knows me knows that positivity is my always vibe and that’s just how things are and that won’t change. But, being the sunshine and rainbows girl doesn’t make me infallible to sadness and I wouldn’t be a three dimensional person in my own life if I didn’t let that show through sometimes.